(off camera) “Now what do you call your grandmother?” G-Mom. (off camera) “And what do you call your mother?” Mommy Angel. “Mommy Angel?” Yeah.
“Can you say it again?” Mommy Angel.
“Mommy Angel, that’s right.” I’m raising Rae Carruth’s son. And I don’t believe that there’s any way that I
could hate a part of Chancellor and say that I love him unconditionally.
I just, you can’t do that. So to love him unconditionally will be
to love every part of Chancellor, and Rae Carruth is a part of Chancellor. Chancellor does not think he’s disabled.
He is abled differently. So he does not conduct himself like a helpless person. That strong, athletic ability that Chancellor has and he displays when he’s
doing his therapy — and it’s not even just therapy, it’s the day-to-day tasks that
we take so much for granted that he has to put so much effort into doing. I see
Cherica coming through. That fight and that determination. And I must give credit to Rae Carruth because I think Rae has some of those same qualities
because you couldn’t make it to the NFL just being mediocre. I’m almost grateful that it happened
because it has shown me a part of me that I didn’t know lived in there.
I am bigger than I thought I was. I am more faithful than I thought I was. I’m more loving and compassionate than I ever thought I could be. And for that I
really have Rae Carruth to thank. Van Brett Watkins was the only one of
the four that actually reached out to me to ask for some forgiveness in the
beginning. And he expressed remorse, and I believed him.
Van Brett Watkins sent me a letter, expressing that, and I did write back to
him and it’s dated April 18th, 2003. And I said to him: “Mr. Watkins,
you know I am suffering. Because of your actions, I will never be able to hold my
beautiful daughter Cherica again. Because of your actions,
my grandson Chancellor cannot do the simplest things like call me ‘grandmommy’
or play ball with the other children. But despite my grief, I want you to know that
I have forgiven you. I know you are suffering too for the horrible choice
you made that day. I want you to know that you will always be in my thoughts
and prayers, and I wish you peace. Saundra Adams”